Why is it so easy to tell someone to “get over it” you can see a lost cause so clearly and you get annoyed when they just keep trying. But here you are still feeling, hurting for, hating, loving, thinking about, getting over, trying to think of some kind of way to get the same person you have been for years! You see how stupid it looks when someone else does it and you think in your head “HOW DUMB!” but you can’t even follow your own advice..the world may never know =/
Tomorrow is my last day of summer. For hopefully at least the next month I’m going to be completely busy during the day with school and work. Going to school on some days from 8am til 3pm which is followed up by working from 3 til 8:30. Other days I’m starting work at 9 or even 7am and don’t get off until 2:30. Plus on Thursday I have a class from 6 to 9pm. Pretty much if I’m not doing something school related (class, homework, or working at the bookstore), I’m going to be sleeping, reading, or feeling depressed.
I do not feel ready at all to work the cash register during rush (the first couple weeks of school) and for some reason I’m worried about school. It feels like I’ve been out of school forever and I kind of don’t want to go back. I don’t like bumming around and wasting the day like I currently am, especially because I haven’t got paid in a few weeks, but at the same time, I’m afraid of what’s next. I’m nervous and afraid that I’m ill-prepared for what’s coming up in my life. I don’t know why.
College is nothing new or different for I’ve already finished a year of it with flying colors. When it comes to school I guess it’s just the same nervous jitters I get before every semester. It sucks. At least I know for sure I have two classes with a friend and possibly a third. It’s awesome I don’t have to be completely quiet in those classes, but I have a feeling I still might feel a little alone in those classes. I don’t know what stops me from opening up, but at most times I’m quiet and awkward which does not help anything at all. Maybe if this was a movie I could be Michael Cera, but it’s real life and I’m a loser… Digression.
Now when it comes to work, I shouldn’t be too worried. I’ve worked a few hours behind the cash register at the bookstore already and things went fairly smooth with only a couple of mess ups. Nothing too bad though. I still fear messing up though. I don’t want to mess up so badly and I’m just afraid it’s going to happen. Also, I want to be personable and friendly with the customers, but at the same time, I don’t want to deal with the customers due to my aforementioned quiet and awkwardness. I wouldn’t mind the job if I knew it wasn’t too busy, but it’s the campus bookstore and the first week of school. It’s going to be busy. I’m hoping they don’t put me in the bookstore, but rather the Healthy U health food store for it’s nice and small. This probably won’t happen though because I was hired for the sole purpose of helping out the bookstore during rush… This sucks.
I’ve been complaining about having nothing to do and being bored. Now my plate is going to be full, so of course I’m complaining about… my plate being full. I could probably keep typing, but I’ll end this now as a courtesy to the 8 or 9 people that follow me on here. They’re probably just scrolling down and this post is just making them scroll down even further. Sorry about this. From time to time I’m going to post extremely long… umm… soliloquies? I don’t know. This helps me from going completely insane, so if you are actually reading this for some apparent reason, just think of this as the ramblings of unimportant teenager #1,803,522,769. Whatever…
I finally started playing this game and it’s epic! The kid dying in the beginning. Are you serious!? That was hella sad. Stupid ass kid shouldn’t have just wandered off like that, but still. Was that lady driving not paying attention at all? Just had to post this. The intro credits are over now. Back to the game.
I’m seriously pissed that Scott Pilgrim vs. the World came in 5th place in the box office opening weekend while this testosterone circle jerk known as The Expendables came in first. Really!? I know I’m biased because I read the Scott Pilgrim graphic novels and loved them, but the movie was still great regardless if you’ve read the books or not. The Expendables was just explosion, explosion, knife, CG blood, Jet Lee “acting,” explosion, shotgun, CG blood, one-liner, explosion, fire, knife, end credits. The plot was just straight horrible. They blew up half an island and destroyed it’s government just because Stallone fell in love with a chick he knew for 15 minutes and then he leaves her! Statham’s storyline was pretty much three scenes. Him: “Babe I’m back.” His girl: “You were gone for a month and don’t talk to me. I’ve moved on.” Him:”Fuck, I’m sad.” Stallone: “You gotta go get her if you really love her.” Him: “I love you babe.” His girl: “My new boyfriend beats me.” Him: “I”m going to fuck him up.” And then he kicks douchebag ass. I had some hope for The Expendables, but I didn’t think it could possibly be how bad it was. I was hopeful with Scott Pilgrim, but at the same time, feared it was going to suck. That movie, however, was beyond epic in all aspects. I know I had nothing to do with the film Scott Pilgrim, but I like to see good films succeed and receive the recognition they deserve. SPvsTW is just like Kick Ass all over again. An epically awesome comic book movie that is surprisingly faithful to the source material that ends up not “connecting” with mainstream audiences who like to watch Predators and The Expendables. Hopefully both films reach cult classic status on DVD.
I guess this is sort of like everything else I do.